Agony

here i am looking for anything related to you,
in detail, as i get a faded smile with every click.
it’s the same song we both hate, so why is it still playing?
it’s the hatred that keeps it alive.

i guess i expected a bit too much, or maybe a little less
for what i see seems a different story
mine is something delicate, something clean and pure.
that’s not what the world shows.

but you give me a different definition.
for you are flawed, but perfectly.

and still, everything remains unknown.
unknown with hopes that you see a different pair of eyes
from hers.

but you are blind as i am with what i see in you.

still, we both can’t comprehend.
there’s a connection invisible from two worlds
and no straight line is formed, but it’s on its way, i guess.

maybe. long, long way to go.

so now i hope for nothing.
for what she is to you doesn’t define who i am.

it just won’t.